I’m feeling kinda lonely at the moment. I’m in bad enough shape that seeing people in real life is really difficult, and quite frankly I’m no longer a priority for the friends I’ve managed to retain over the years I’ve been sick. I’m not exactly blaming them although it feels a bit hurtful sometimes that they don’t contact me more often. I mean, I really really understand the part about being out and about and doing whatever it is you do when you are well and able. I certainly would if I could. I just wish they’d include me a bit more that’s all. I’m also in an age group where most have smallish children, and that makes it hard for someone to come visit when I feel good enough to see them. They can’t bring their children with them to come see me even if I’d like to either (kids are noisy and to full of energy).
So here is my little problem. I sort of live my life online these days, but for some reason I have difficulties entering conversations online. I quite often have things I want to say but the fact that I have to write it out and be sort of articulate in a shortish period of time freaks me out a little. What if it comes across wrong etc. etc. What if I suddenly stop being able to english or even worse norwegish (that’s a word!)? This means that I often don’t manage to say what I want, and then of course I don’t make friends either. Ugh. I’m trying though. It’s my goal for this year to be more active online but that’s easier said than done.
I would like some friends that understand what I’m going through, but who also tells stupid jokes and talks about pets and is as geeky as me. Wish me luck .