Getting your groove back – or something

Sometimes life is a tinsy tiny little bit difficult. I’ve just had another conversation with the disability people, and I’m wrapped up in bureaucratic red tape and it’s taking for fucking ever! It’s easy to get discouraged and down when nothing seems to go your way, and you are on your third night of not sleeping much. For me though, this is when I end up at my silliest and weirdest. These are a few of my coping mechanisms:

Reading something sad: I’ll have a really good snivelling cry (works with sad movies too). Trust me you’ll feel better after. Being a good ol’ geek means I’ll always find some  fanfiction full of angst somewhere. Crying from fictional angst has nothing to do with my own life, is for some reason pretty helpful. YMMV obviously. In the end I’ll be redfaced and swollen, full of snot and somehow feeling better anyway.

Movies: I’ll watch my version of guilty pleasure* movies; monster movies. The stupider the better. Giant fish, mutated sharks and alligators, defrosted mammoths and genetically engineered bats. Another fun activity is watching them on silent and do a bad lip reading of the thing. *I don’t actually believe in guilty pleasures, but a lot of people call them that so…

Comic books: I’ll read a new comic book I haven’t read before. I’ve discovered a lot of new stuff since I started reading comic books again. So much new fun stuff. If you want some recommendations check out Nimona by Noelle Stevenson, the Hawkeye run by Matt Fraction and David Aja, Hellcat by Kate Leth and Brittany Williams. Lots of new writers and creators to be excited about.

Internet fun: I find silly and stupid gifs, videos and memes. Cats failing to jump and falling off stuff is always good. There are a lot of creative and silly people on the intertubes. That’s how I found Nimona by the way. It started out as a webcomic before Noelle got a book deal. Following funny people on twitter, and reading fun blogs is a good way to distract as well.

Making up stories: I have a detective story in the works that I’m writing just for fun. My mom and I came up with a premise of a mother daughter detective team who solve a murder at our local train station. It’s truly ridiculous and makes absolutely no sense. It will never be published, and probably never read by anyone else either. I love silly detective stories so much, and it is fun making up stories on my local neighbourhood.

British comedy series: The obscure ones are the best. My love for the Mighty Boosh for instance led me on a journey to find out what everyone in that series had done and to gems like Snuff Box and Garth Marenghi’s Darkplace.

My coping mechanisms might not be for you of course, people are individuals. I just think it’s good to take a time out and be silly for a while and I hope you can too. Those of us with chronic illnesses need some time to be ourselves, even if we only can manage it when we are alone or online. It’s bloody hard work being sick all the time, I think I’ll watch a monster fish in a swamp instead for a while.

Entertain me, or maybe not?

I have real problems watching TV these days, but a smaller screen like an iPad and using headphones works for some reason. Following new shows and storylines is really difficult for me, and with all the great stuff I read is out there now it makes me sad. I’ve tried to watch all the new superhero and sci-fi shows on Netflix, but the stuff I know I would like is to difficult to follow for me right now. I’ve tried a lot of first episodes that I think is great, but ask me 10 minutes later what I just saw and I won’t be able to tell you. I never seem to get to episode two.

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I’m absolutely not able to go to the movies at the moment. I was really hoping to be well enough to see Captain America: Civil War, because I’ve been looking forward to it since the Winter Soldier. I manage to watch movies on my iPad, with low lights and low volume – but I’s not quite the same is it.

I do watch some old stuff on Youtube these days. Most of the Mst3k episodes are there and they are just as funny as I remember. I love bad movies – particularly monster movies – and when I was better I wrote live watching posts with plenty of snark on a few. They are on my tumblr and I think I might bring them over here some time I have the energy.

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It’s also pro cycling season, and the Giro de Italia is on and I’m not able to follow. It’s just to much flipping between cameras and helicopters. I have to get a little bit better for the Tour de France. It’s my favourite race.

I’ll have a home for yule…

…if my new sofa shows up. And my new dining chairs. It’s just the fiddly bits left to do now, like painting the windows and my new inbuilt book shelf and stuff like that.

My new ceiling lamp looks fantastic by the way:

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Look at the shadows not the mess.

My television has been mounted on the wall, and I really recommend doing this to anyone who has walls that can take the weight. It already looks a million times tidier than before even if I’m not finished. The bracket didn’t cost much and can be reused when I need to get a new TV.

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